Finally!

It is not very easy, isn’t it? Accepting people around us, their emotions and the situations. But how important is that, if we do not listen to what is within us, if we do not acknowledge the emotions that are suppressed by our own selves and if we do not listen to the different versions of ourselves!

So here I am, trying to swim through the swirling ocean I am submerged in, trying to swim through all the emotions I have within me. Trying to listen to myself more, by expressing.

The blog is just as simple as this — all of me, and all of my lovely chaos.

How many times have I ignored the voices in my head! I have never even recognized the very existence of the voices waiting to be heard and nurtured. I have felt clueless several times, I did not understand what was happening in the first place! A comprehensive and laid out chaos in all senses, which is dutifully buried, as deep as it can get, and left unrecognized by our own conditioning.

I have always found expressing very difficult. A lot of it probably comes from the head-start of when I was a kid. We all have been there, heard several times “you can do this or you cannot do that!” for so many different things. The fact that I am giving an explanation gives me a sense of “Ah! So this is what it is!”, but a one-frame-fits-all doesn’t exist, isn’t it? So recently, I have been exploring, making an effort, trying to halt myself from explaining every single thing. Hoping to not just look at what makes sense and is satisfactory, but also feel the discomfort and so much more than just this or that!

Watching ocean usually leaves me with a sea of emotions to delve into. The piece of digital art I have attempted at, is an expression of that, of all the emotions and all the ramblings. Oh, and I have named it too ;) — “The ease & the peace, and the chaos in the seas”. What more do I want but to trot along and just watch the sea touch the shore again and again.

Creating this website and exploring writing down, has been one of my greatest challenges. But to post, has been the greater hurdle! I have procrastinated posting in the blog for so long now. I just couldn’t do it all this while. I do not know what I have conquered within me, to post this today. I am just glad that I am able to do it.

It just somehow feels like today is the day! More so because, I am writing this for the second time. Yep. The first time I finally wrote something and was about to publish, was when i realised that the page was not responding at all and that it was not saved in the blog properly[Thanks to network issues]. I lost all that i wrote, i didn’t have a backup either. I felt annoyed to think about writing it down, once again and thought if this is a sign of “maybe, not today”. Yet, I made a choice to not let this stop me today.

And therefore my dear friends, here are my blog posts, from my very own space, Finally!!!!!!